I’m back – 2nd November, 2006

Hey there, 

It has been so so long that I didn’t write to you, huh. Time just flies when you’re having fun or not having fun. I just came back to Holland from China, my first visit back home since I got here 14 months ago. It was just so emotional when I saw my mom, dad and my brother. It didn’t feel I was away so long till I really saw quite big changes on everybody.

The life here is quite relaxing. Work is not busy as I used to do in China. Nobody really cares whether you are able to finish your work today or tomorrow. Everybody seems to be so satisfied with their own pace of life, laid back…. Maybe I am just too difficult. To me, it doesn’t feel I work. It might sound insensible as everybody of my colleagues always seem to be so busy. I’m not sure whether it’s coz I’m so efficient or they are just not used to working hard. And it’s how they think, they are busy. I don’t have so much motivation or satisfaction from this work, even though I believe it is quite admirable regarding the company, my position, location etc. etc. I feel I am wasting my time.

But what is really what I want? I’m not sure. Maybe it will be always a question mark, since I’m such a person who is difficult to satisfy. Sometimes I really wish I was a different person. A person who is satisfied with teaching in the university. If I was, then maybe at the moment, I would be already a mom, running around with napkins, dippers, with big smiles always on my face.

The fact is I am not. 

Now it is 18:32pm, Holland time here. I am still in the office, busy typing  on my new laptop, and a new LCD monitor. It’s not because I have been too busy working. I had to pretend to be busy working as all my other colleagues. It feels even more tired when you have nothing to do.

I bet many people will be very jealous that I have such an easy and relaxing job, with a good title. But I am not.

I am just so difficult.

Somewhere in August

Time:  Somewhere in August

 

Hey there,

 

How have you been? I hope everything with you is good.

 

As for me, It’s said " Shen Zai Jianghu, Shen bu you ji" In China,you have to work hard and hard, working over time is so normal and common. In here, esp the company I’m working now, comparing with working in Seagate/China, it’s going so slow. It doesn’t matter if you can’t finish something today, you can do it tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow. I’m not quite used to it though,  hehehehe.

 

I just work 36 hrs a week, which is also the working schedule of this company. Many of my female colleagues, who have younger childern, just work 28 hrs a week. Normally they just work 4 days, hehehe. I’m not sure whether it’s good or not to me if in some years I choose to move back to China. Perhaps right then I will be so much unused to working that hard or that long! Hahaha….. You see, now I am enjoying the benefit of capitalism ! Hahaha….. Just joking, honestly, sometimes it feels a bit bored, but it’s life, isn’t it?

 

Not sure whether it’s coz I’m older or I have a someone with me, it doesn’t feel working/career is that important or exciting. It’s just a way to make money, to support my family. Life should be more relaxing and easy. Hehehe, guess after I have a kid, maybe I will be becoming really less ambitious… It doesn’t sound like me, huh.

 

I actually has another meeting which I need to attend late September, to Croatia. I was not even sure where it is, somewhere in East Europe. But coz it’s quite close to my vacation to China, I asked someone else to go. For this job, it won’t travel that much as I used to in Seagate, which is perhaps good for me since now I’m not alone.

 

Regards

 

Me